StyleDiary: Not Okay
As I laced up my shoes last Sunday to embark on my longest run to date since last year’s marathon, my head and my heart were heavy. So heavy I wasn’t even sure I could make it the measly eight miles. So heavy that not even a dozen of the world’s greatest cupcakes or a new pair of high heels could lighten the load. Everyone says He never gives you more than you can handle, but lately it has felt like I am drowning in bad news. But as I do on most long runs, I turned on a podcast of my old hometown church and headed out to relieve my stress and clear my head.
It was a beautiful fall day, one that only God himself could manifest, and as my feet pounded the pavement it was as if He was trying to tell me something. The message of the podcast/sermon was “It’s okay to be not okay.” This message hit me like a brick wall because lately I have been not okay. But the lesson is that’s okay. It’s okay to admit it. It’s okay to cry, to mourn, and to hurt because these are the moments that teach us who we are and who we desire to be. It’s okay because I have my faith and family, friends and a husband that love me and provide the support system I need at this difficult time. Just because I am not okay right now doesn’t mean I won’t be in the future. And it’s going to be okay.